ShimeiValentine's Domain

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 04:42:02 GMT

If you do not understand these lyrics now, you probably soon will.

"Fall

Now the dark begins to rise
Save your breath it's far from over
Leave the lost and dead behind
Now's your chance to run for cover
I don't want to change the world
I just want to leave it colder
Light the fuse and burn it up
Take the path that leads to nowhere
All is lost again, but I'm not giving in

I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

Fall

Watch the end through dying eyes
Now the dark is taking over
Show me where forever dies
Take the fall and run to heaven
All is lost again, but I'm not giving in

I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold blooded, fake
I will shut the world away

I will not!

I will not bow, I will not break
I will shut the world away
I will not fall, I will not fade
I will take your breath away

And I'll survive, paranoid
I have lost the will to change
And I am not proud, cold blooded, fake
I will shut the world away

Fall"

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 17:19:31 GMT

*kicks feet* I'm alooone on Halloween. The friendses are at Youmacon. Damn do i miss them...

A very simple post

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 11:25:40 GMT

Making new friends is good. =)

Good luck to me...?

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 00:37:32 GMT

I have one night to memorize all 50 states and the first 15 lines of the Declaration of Independence. Not the "We the People" constitution. The "When in the course of human events" Declaration of Independence. -_-u I would've memorized it this weekend, but wasn't feeling very good. Actually, I've already managed to memorize all the states and their locations. But that declaration will be difficult. Especially with my early bedtime and the fact that I am leaving in about 10 minutes to go back to Snider to watch stars with my teacher for extra credit in that class! ._. this all had better be worth my time.

OMG MY OTP

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 01:25:49 GMT

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 05:18:53 GMT

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss

Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head

But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

And I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 04:25:56 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALFRED!!!
(hopefully the white letters show up correctly)
Sorry that I can't be more joyful this weekend.
But, I can hardly eat, let alone celebrate too much.

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 21:30:06 GMT

Happy Birthday Matthew!

Canada's birthday is today. =/ wish I was happy enough to celebrate it.

Music thingy that I stoled

Thu, 25 Jun 2009 01:24:30 GMT

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:

1. Open your library. (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool... and a lot of the songs fit with the setting.

Opening Credits:
Believe by Staind
I sit alone and watch the clock
Tryin to collect my thoughts
I'll I think about is you
And so I cry myseld to sleep
And hope the devil I don't meet
In the Dreams that I live through

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

All the smiles you've had to fake
And all the bullshit you've had to take
Just to lead us here again
I never have the things to say
To make it all just go away
To make it all just disappear

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

It's my life
It's my choice
Hear my words
Hear my voice
So just believe

I sit alone and watch the clock
Tryin to collect my thoughts
I'll I think about is you
If you believe in me
Life not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams.

Believe in me
I know you've waited for so long
Believe in me
Sometimes the weak become the strong
Believe in me
This life is not always what it seems
Believe in me
Cause I was made for chasing dreams

Waking Up:
Let You Down by Three Days Grace

Trust me
There’s no need to fear
Everyone’s here
Waiting for you to finally be one of us

Come down...
You may be full of fear
But you’ll be safe here
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

I will let you down
I’ll let you down, I’ll
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

Trust me
I’ll be there when you need me
You’ll be safe here
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

I will let you down
I’ll let you down, I’ll
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

I will let you down
I’ll let you down, I’ll
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

Never want to come down
Never want to come down
Never want to come down

(Down, let you down)

I will let you down
I’ll let you down, I’ll
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

I will let you down
I’ll let you down, I’ll
When you finally trust me
Finally believe in me

First Day At School:
Poison by Alice Cooper
(That's...terrifying. xD)

Your cruel deep eyes,
Your blood like ice.
One look could kill,
My pain, your thrill.

I wanna love you, but I better not touch (Don't Touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much (too much)
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains.

Your mouth, so hot
Your web, I'm caught
Your skin, so wet
black lace on sweat

I hear you callin' and it's needles and pins (and pins)
I wanna hurt you just to hear you screaming my name
Don't wanna touch you, but you're under my skin (deep in)
I wanna kiss you, but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

One look (one look), could kill (could kill),
My pain, your thrill.

I wanna love you, but I better not touch (Don't touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I want it too much (too much)
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

You're poison runnin' through my veins
You're poison, I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

I wanna love you, but I better not touch (Don't touch)
I wanna hold you, but my senses tell me to stop
I wanna kiss you, but I wanna too much (too much)
I wanna taste you, but your lips are venomous poison

Yeah
Well I don't wanna break these chains
Poison

Runnin' deep inside my veins
Burnin' deep inside my veins
Poison (Poison)
I don't wanna break these chains

Falling In Love:
Inside the Fire by Disturbed

Devon
Won't go to heaven
She's just another lost soul, about to be mine again
Leave her
we will recieve her
It is beyond your control
will you ever meet again

Devon
No longer living
Who had been rendered alone
As a little child,
she was taken
and then forsaken
you will remember it all
Let it blow your mind again

Devon lies beyond this portal
take the word of one immortal
Give your soul to me
For eternity
release your life
to begin another time with her
End your grief with me
there's another way
release your life
take your place inside the fire with her
Sever
Now and forever
you're just another lost soul about to be mine again
see her, you'll never free her
you must surrender it all
And give life to me again

Fire
All you desire
As she begins to turn cold and run out of time
you will shiver
till you deliver
you will remember it all
Let it blow your mind again

Devon lies beyond this portal
take the word of one immortal
Give your soul to me
For eternity
release your life
to begin another time with her
End your grief with me
there's another way
release your life
take your place inside the fire with her

Give your soul to me
For eternity
release your life
to begin another time with her
End your grief with me
there's another way
release your life
take your place inside the fire with her

Devon
No longer living
Who had been rendered alone
As a little child
she was taken,
and then forsaken
you will remember it all
Let it blow your mind again

Fight Song:
Bad by Micheal Jackson
(lol wat? xD)

Your Butt Is Mine
Gonna Take You Right
Just Show Your Face
In Broad Daylight
I'm Telling You
On How I Feel
Gonna Hurt Your Mind
Don't Shoot To Kill
Come On, Come On,
Lay It On Me All Right...

I'm Giving You
On Count Of Three
To Show Your Stuff
Or Let It Be . . .
I'm Telling You
Just Watch Your Mouth
I Know Your Game
What You're About

Well They Say The Sky's
The Limit
And To Me That's Really True
But My Friend You Have
Seen Nothing
Just Wait 'Til I Get Through . . .

Because I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
Come On
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
You Know It
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
Come On, You Know
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now
Just To Tell You Once Again,
Who's Bad . . .

The Word Is Out
You're Doin' Wrong
Gonna Lock You Up
Before Too Long,
Your Lyin' Eyes
Gonna Take You Right
So Listen Up
Don't Make A Fight,
Your Talk Is Cheap
You're Not A Man
You're Throwin' Stones
To Hide Your Hands

But They Say The Sky's
The Limit
And To Me That's Really True
And My Friends You Have
Seen Nothin'
Just Wait 'Til I Get Through . . .

Because I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
Come On
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
You Know It
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
You Know It, You Know
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now
(And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now)
Just To Tell You Once Again,
(Just To Tell You Once Again)
Who's Bad . . .

We Can Change The World
Tomorrow
This Could Be A Better Place
If You Don't Like What I'm
Sayin'
Then Won't You Slap My
Face . . .

Because I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
Come On
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
You Know It
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
You Know It, You Know
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)

Woo! Woo! Woo!
(And The Whole World Has
To Answer Right Now
Just To Tell You Once
Again . . .)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
Come On
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
You Know It-You Know It
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know, You Know, You
Know, Come On
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now
(And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now)
Just To Tell You
(Just To Tell You Once Again)

You Know I'm Smooth, I'm
Bad, You Know It
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad, I'm
Bad Baby
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know, You Know, You
Know It, Come On
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now
(And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now)
Woo!
(Just To Tell You Once Again)

You Know I'm Bad, I'm Bad-
You Know It
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad-You
Know-Hoo!
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
You Know I'm Bad-I'm Bad-
You Know It, You Know
(Bad Bad-Really, Really Bad)
And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now
(And The Whole World Has To
Answer Right Now)
Just To Tell You Once Again . . .
(Just To Tell You Once
Again . . .)
Who's Bad?

Breaking Up:
Uninvited by Alanis Morrisette

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot-blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepherd need shepherd
But you you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

Prom:
Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne

Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way, I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me
No way, no way, you know it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

You're so fine, I want you mine, you're so delicious
I think about you all the time, you're so addictive
Don't you know what I can do to make you feel alright?
Alright, alright, alright

Don't pretend, I think you know I'm precious
And so yeah, I'm a hey, hey princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right
I'm right, I'm right, I'm right

She's like so whatever
You could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everybody?s talking about

Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way, I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me
No way, no way, you know it?s not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
And again and again and again

So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear
Better yet, make your girlfriend disappear
I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again
And again and again and again

?Cause she's like so whatever
And she could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everybody's talking about

Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way, I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend

Hey, hey, you, you, I know that you like me
No way, no way, you know it's not a secret
Hey, hey, you, you, I want to be your girlfriend

Oh, in a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
Woo, 'cause I can, ?cause I can do it better
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?
Hey, she's so stupid, just what were you thinking?

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger
'Cause I can, ?cause I can do it better
There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid, just what were you thinking?

Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend
No way, no way, I think you need a new one
Hey, hey, you, you, I could be your girlfriend
No way, no way

Hey, hey, I know that you like me
No way, no way, you know it's not a secret
Hey, hey, I want to be your girlfriend
No way, no way, no way, no way

Life:
A Little More by Skillet

Love is all around you now
So take a hold
Hidden in our words
It sometimes ain't enough
Don't suffocate day after day
It's building up
Cause when you're feeling weak
You know I'm strong enough

Just one more day
One more day

Oh, let the world crash
Love can take it
Oh, let the world come crashing down
Oh, let the world crash
Love can take it
Love can take a little
Love can give a little more

Love is indestructible
So take a hold
Sometimes hard to find
A reason good enough
I'll stand beside you
Never leave through it all
And faith will bring a way
To the impossible

Just one more day
One more day

Oh, let the world crash
Love can take it
Oh, let the world come crashing down
Oh, let the world crash
Love can take it
Love can take a little
Love can give a little more

You can find me
You can find me
You can find me anywhere
Take a look over your shoulder
I'll be standing there
Standing there

Love is all around you now
So take a hold
And faith will bring a way
To the impossible

Just one more day
(You can find me, You can find me)
One more day
(You can find me anywhere) [2x]

Let the world crash
Love can take it
Oh, let the world come crashing down
Oh, let the world crash
Love can take it
Love can take a little
Love can take a little
Love can take a little
Love can give a little more
A little more

Take a little more
Take a little more

Mental Breakdown:
I'll Be Watching You by Sting and The Police

Every breath you take
And every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
Ill be watching you

Every single day
And every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
Ill be watching you

Oh, cant you see
You belong to me
Now my poor heart aches
With every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
Ill be watching you

Since youve gone, Ive been lost without a trace
I dream at night, I can only see your face
I look around but its you I cant replace
I feel so cold and I long for your embrace
I keep crying baby, baby please

Oh, cant you see
You belong to me
Now my poor heart aches
Every step you take

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
Ill be watching you

Every move you make
Every step you take
Ill be watching you
Ill be watching you

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
(Ill be watching you)

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
(Ill be watching you)

Every move you make
Every vow you break
Every smile you fake
Every claim you stake
(Ill be watching you)

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night you stay
(Ill be watching you)

Every breath you take
Every move you make
Every bond you break
Every step you take
(Ill be watching you)

Every single day
Every word you say
Every game you play
Every night

Driving:
Saving Me by Nickleback

Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus:]
Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

Hurry I'm fallin'

All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

Hurry I'm fallin'

Flashback:
Breakstuff by Limp Bizkit

Its just one of those days
When you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked
Everybody sux
You don't really know why
But you want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
It's just one of those days!!

[chorus]
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit
Lettin' shit slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
Its all about the he says she says bullshit
I think you better quit talkin that shit
(Punk, so come and get it)
Its just one of those days
Feelin' like a freight train
First one to complain
Leaves with a blood stain
Damn right I'm a maniac
You better watch your back
Cuz I'm fuckin' up your program
And if your stuck up
You just lucked up
Next in line to get fucked up
Your best bet is to stay away motherfucker
Its just one of those days!!

[chorus]

I feel like shit
My suggestion is to keep your distance cuz right now im dangerous
We've all felt like shit
And been treated like shit
All those motherfuckers that want to step up
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break your fuckin' face tonight!!
Give me somethin' to break
Give me somethin' to break
Just give me somethin' to break
How bout your fuckin' face
I hope you know I pack a chain saw, what!!...
A chain saw, what!!...
A motherfucking chain saw, what!!...
So come and get it

Getting back together:
Bad Boy by Cascada

Remember the feelings, remember the day
My stone heart was breaking
My love ran away
This moments I knew I would be someone else
My love turned around and I fell
Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you in my life again
Won't you be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you again
No I don't need you again

You once made this promise
To stay by my side
But after some time you just pushed me aside
You never thought that a girl could be strong
Now I'll show you how to go on

Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you in my life again

Won't you be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand
That I don't need you again
No I don't need you again

Wedding:
Good Enough by Evanesence

Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

Birth of Child:
Let Me Out by Future Leaders of the World

I found some peace today, I grit my teeth
And swallow all of my pain
And selfish pride, I used to hide behind

Let me out let me out I'm singing
Let me out let me out I'm singing
I'm a liar and cheat in prison
Accused of telling the truth

Flames of pain stained paint my eyes
Child I've lost this face won't lie
Time burns my souls decay gray
Sifting through the smoke and lies
Swimming exhale love that's died
The first and last ain't ever the same
So I'll keep on singing this
I don't care if your right or if I'm always wrong
Just wanna sing my song before this whole world

Let me out let me out I'm singing
Let me out let me out I'm singing
I'm a liar and a cheat in prison
Accused of telling the truth

Now and forever I stand to sever all ties and connections
To recollections of pain and fear
Family society authority and ever peer
Swallowing tears lining my stomach
I'm getting freer every second eroding and exploding
All these corporate deceptions right here I'm out

Mental prison bars block our minds
Youths truth sold and televised
I never bought it and I wont play your game's for fame
Are we just rats in a pipers tune soothed
Scrappin' for cheese in a maze made to loose
I know I'm not and I won't eat your food, subdued
I don't care if your right or if I'm always wrong
Just wanna sing my song before this whole world's
Gone..

Let me out let me out I'm singing
Let me out let me out I'm singing
I'm a liar and a cheat in prison
Accused of telling the truth

I'm out... out [x4]

Final Battle:
Disturbia by Rihanna

What's wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I'm going crazy now

No more gas, in the red, can't even get it started
Nothing heard, nothing said, can't even speak about it
On my life, on my head, don't wanna think about it
Feels like I'm going insane, yeah

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind, it can control you
It's too close for comfort

Put on your pretty lies, you're in the city of wonder
Ain't gon' play nice, watch out you might just go under
Better think twice, your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Your mind's in disturbia, it's like the darkness is light
Disturbia, am I scaring you tonight?
Disturbia, ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia

Faded pictures on the wall, it's like they talking to me
Disconnecting on calls, the phone don't even ring
I gotta get out or figure this sh** out
It's too close for comfort, oh

It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
I feel like a monster, oh

Put on your pretty lies, you're in the city of wonder
Ain't gon' play nice, watch out you might just go under
Better think twice, your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Your mind's in disturbia, it's like the darkness is light
Disturbia, am I scaring you tonight?
Disturbia, ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia, disturbia

Release me from this curse I'm in
Trying to maintain but I'm struggling
If you can't go-o-o
I think I'm gonna ah, ah, ah, ah

Put on your pretty lies, you're in the city of wonder
Ain't gon' play nice, watch out you might just go under
Better think twice, your train of thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise

Disturbia, it's like the darkness is light
Disturbia, am I scaring you tonight?
Disturbia, ain't used to what you like
Disturbia, disturbia

Death Scene:
Closer by Nine Inch Nails

(And...now I'm terrified. >.> looks around for Necrophiliacs)

You let me violate you, you let me desecrate you
You let me penetrate you, you let me complicate you
Help me I broke apart my insides, help me I’ve got no soul to sell
Help me the only thing that works for me, help me get away from myself
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god
You can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
You can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
Help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex I can smell
Help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else
I want to fuck you like an animal
I want to feel you from the inside
I want to fuck you like an animal
My whole existence is flawed
You get me closer to god

Through every forest, above the trees
Within my stomach, scraped off my knees
I drink the honey inside your hive
You are the reason I stay alive

Funeral Song:
Love Like Winter by AFI

Warn your warmth to turn away,
Here it's December,
Everyday. [small girlish echo:] I like that

Press your lips to the sculptures,
And surely you'll stay. [distant:] love like winter

For of sugar and ice,
I am made. I am made

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love,
I taste of blood.
He bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.

She exhales vanilla lace,
I barely dreamt her, yesterday. [echo:] yesterday
Read the lines in the mirror through,
The lipstick trace.
Por siempre

She said "It seems you're somewhere, far away" to his face.

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
She wanted love,
I taste of blood.
She bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.

Love Like Winter.

Love Like Winter.

Winter.
Three, four

It's in the blood,
It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
He wanted love,
I taste of blood.
He bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before, from years before.
From years before.

End Credits:
Vanilla by Gackt
(english lyrics since its originally in Japanese)

You are a sincere moralist.
Running a pretty finger over me.
I am a pure terrorist,
Just as you hoped, a revolution is happening.

A speciallist bound in romance,
Long fingernails got me erect.
An egoist who wants to confirm love,
I want to struggle until I'm deep inside you.

You keep pulling your face away from mine,
Ah, before I lose my mind...

Would it be ok to love, too, in this gyrating night?
Just like this... Harder, deeper...
As lips that are insanely familiar with the act, melt with each other
I am... your... Vanilla.

"God... oh you're getting too involved" You're cool like plastic.
An ecologist caught in a hot glance,
I'm impatient for your burning kiss.

Your distorting face is...
Ah I'll do it myself.

Would it be ok to love, too, in this gyrating night?
Just like this... Harder, faster,
Painfully familiar wet lips, don't need words...
You and I are not burning love.

Ah how many mornings have we greeted togheter?
Ah does this night ever have to end?
Ah spreed across the sky...
Ah white flowers surround us and die.

Is it ok to love, too, in this gyrating night?
Just like this... "I've seen a tail"
It's almost embarrassing, I've fallen for you.
A crew sees cring knees
I wanna need. Not betray!
Would it be ok to love, too, in this gyrating night?
Just like this... Harder, deeper...
As pelvic thrust that are insanely familiar to the act, melt with each other...
You are... my... caretaker.

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 06:07:39 GMT

Characters list now:

No.	Name
1	Italy
2	Prussia
3	Germany
4	USA
5	England
5	Japan
7	Russia
8	Norway
8	Britannia Angel
10	France
10	Canada
12	China
13	Switzerland
14	Greece
14	Cyprus
16	Turkey
17	Romano (S. Italy)
18	Chibitalia
19	Lithuania
20	Iceland
21	Spain
22	Holy Roman Empire
23	Korea
24	Austria
25	Denmark
25	Egypt
27	England's imaginary friends
28	Liechtenstein
29	Mochimerica
30	Australia
31	Sweden
32	Finland
33	Kumajirou
34	Roman Empire
35	Latvia
36	Hong Kong
37	Germania
38	Sealand
39	Poland
40	Pochi-kun(Japan's dog)
41	Prussia's bird
42	Belgium
43	Hungary
44	Frederick II
45	Seychelles
46	Ukraine
47	Hanatamago
48	Vietnam
48	Thailand
50	Estonia
51	Napoleon
51	Shinatty-chan
53	Taiwan
54	Jeanne D'Arc
55	Tony
56	Belarus
56	Holland
58	Cuba
58	Bulgaria
58	Maria Theresa

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 05:06:26 GMT

No.	Name
1	USA x England
1	Germany x Prussia
3	France x Canada
3	Germany x Italy
5	France x England
5	Turkey x Greece
5	England x Japan
5	Korea x China
9	USA x Canada
10	Denmark x Norway
11	Russia x USA
12	Prussia x Austria
12	Holy Roman Empire x Chibitalia
14	Spain x Romano
15	Russia x Lithuania
16	Russia x Prussia
17	Sweden x Finland
18	Switzerland x Liechtenstein
19	Germany x Austria
20	Switzerland x Austria
21	Greece x Japan
22	Roman Empire x Germania
23	Denmark x Sweden
24	Lithuania x Poland
24	USA x Prussia
26	France x Spain
26	Romano (S. Italy) x Italy (N. Italy)
28	Japan x Taiwan
28	Prussia x Frederick II
30	France x Seychelles
31	France x Jeanne D'Arc
31	Russia x Belarus
31	Russia x China
31	Korea x Japan
31	Prussia x Hungary
31	Hong Kong x China
37	Austria x Hungary
38	Cuba x Canada

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 03:29:19 GMT

Let's start it off with, why are you single? Extreme low self esteem and fear of confessing. I'm probably pretty hard to get along with as well, but you'd have to ask my ex's.

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you badly? Yes. But I would never forget, even if I forgave.

Where is your phone? Plugged in charging in my room.

How many pillows do you sleep with? Altogether...4.

What are you wearing right now? A wife beater and sport shorts, and of course my rainbow wristband.

Do you like winter? Yes. Its beautiful.

Are you single or taken? Single.

Have you ever liked someone you didn't expect to? Oh yes. That's my problem now.

Your ex says they love you, what do you say? I apologize profusely for seemingly toying with their emotions although that wasnt my intentions.

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/ boyfriend? Yes. o_o

How many pills do you take a day? ahahaha...um- 7 at the least.

Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon? YEP! *proud of self*

Have you held hands with anybody in the past week? Not other than my friends.

Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay? No. Not that I can think of. If there is, I'm missing it.

Why aren't you in bed? Not tired. Took a long nap today.

How do you feel when someone pokes you in the tummy? Pain. Ulcers hurt. D;

Who was the last person to text you? Becky. Labeled 'Wifey'

And your name is? Shimei. =D

Can money buy happiness? A certain kind of happiness. But there are other kinds that cannot be bought.

Hate is a strong word, what do you hate? Bees and feet and myself.

What does it mean when you bite your lip? That Im nervous.

What time did you go to sleep last night? 12 a.m.

Have you recently had plans with someone and they canceled? umm...no?

Does it snow where you live? yes.

Are you listening to music? Not currently.

What are you excited about? My 18th birthday

Have you ever liked someone older than you? All the time.

Who were you with last night? My doggies. Curled up on my bed with a migrane.

Who makes you smile constantly? Erin and Cassie.

What are you thinking about? How much my feet hurt. D=

What made you sad today? My weight, and having to go to the hospital.

Do you trust all of your friends? Some more than others but for the most part, yes.

Are you okay with making a fool of yourself? Yes. It makes people smile and makes them feel better about themselves.

Are you friends with someone who's older than you? Yep. Lots of people.

Has anyone told you lately that they would always be there for you? Yes. <3

Have you ever been called beautiful? ...Yeah. Don't know if I believe it though.

What' s your favorite time of year? Fall

What is your mom listed under in your phone? Mom

Is your shirt yellow? No

Is it easy to make you smile? Sometimes. If we're talking about my real smile.

Do you sleep with one leg out from under the covers? Yep. My right one.

What did the last text you receive say? Did you remember? lol

Who did you last see in person? My mom. Other than family? Erin.

Do you have an older sister? No

Are you excited for the future? Apprehensive is the word I'd use.

Do you own a polo shirt? Yes.

Do you have a Facebook? Yes

Was yesterday better than today? NO. Had a migrane yesterday

Who was the last person to call you? Cassie.

Do you hate the last person that texted you? NO WAY.

Is it easy to annoy you? If I havent taken my meds. =3

Is anything bothering you? Yes. So much I can barely take it.

Are you talking to anyone while doing this? No.

Do you prefer warm or cold weather? Mostly cold. unless I want to play tennis or go to con.

What is the last thing you watched on a tv? History channel

Are your parents over the age of 40? Biological father is.

Are you currently frustrated with someone? Yes. Not her fault though.

Are there any people who don't like you? o_o yes. But I'm being completely honest when I say I truly don't know why.

Are you open about your feelings or closed off? The real ones are closed.

Would you like to put last night on repeat? NO.

Who was the last person too apologize too you? ...Dunno.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My Grandma

How much money do you carry around in your pocket? Usually none. D=

What movie did you last watch? It was called Schoolboy crush or something like that. A gay movie about pretty asian men. =D

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 20:19:19 GMT

Quote from Family Guy, Episode 16 of Season 7 (typed by hand by me, so it may not be exact):

"Everyone will have equal rights- except blacks, hispanics, asains, gays, jews, women, muslims- um, everyone who's not a white man. And I mean white, white- no italians, polish- just people from Ireland, England, and Scotland. But only certain parts of Scotland and Ireland. Just full-blooded whites...you know what? Not even whites. Nobody gets any rights. Ah, America."

Sat, 13 Jun 2009 18:34:32 GMT

YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST. I want to know 28 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never really clicked, or if we already know everything about each other. You are obviously on my f-list, so let me know with whom I'm friends with!

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Film:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarkey) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent:
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together? (If you have no idea, just say something crazy, it'll entertain me!)
28. Will you repost this so I can fill it out for you?

For the lawls

Mon, 25 May 2009 03:24:21 GMT

Hey everyone, I'm at Erin's lakehouse right now! =D hi to Erin sitting right next to me on another laptop (because we're both just that addicted to the internets.) So yeah, today was pretty freakin epic. I don't normally record my daily happenings, but I'm going to this time:

So here's how everything played out today: I woke up and the morning sucked, unfortunately. Had to go to church, and was really tired. Fought with mom about trying to get a ride to someplace and she's being really intolerable. Anyway, I get to church and last though bible class or whatever you wanna title it. The sermon was all based around Memorial Day and such, so me being me (now cracked out from lack of sleep and bordem) have to snicker through the entire thing with all the American symbolism all over the screens. They even had us singing 'God Bless America' and I thought I was gonna bust out laughing instead of singing; or just start singing 'God bless Alfred F Jones' xD
Lasting throuh that stuff though, I finally get to go with Erin down to the lakehouse.  (I had to stop on the way there and go to the restroom at a gas station, and there were condom despensers in there that sold 'scented neon-colored condoms' and it humored me) We had a fun time on the trip on the way over here, being absolute Hetaliatards.  We stopped for ice cream at some place that had to do with Humpty Dumpty; there was a sign in there that said "Humpty Dumpty was pushed"! We got here to the lakehouse I got the grand tour (the house is beautiful, btw) and we ended up in the backyard, looking at the flagpole.  Erin's dad had put up the American flag and the Wales flag for some reason. Well, we marched off to change that. The flags ended up being the UK flag and a pirate flag xD
Then we decided to go swimming (yeay!)...it was cold at first, I just stood there being a pansy with the water at my thighs. We had two swimming noodles and a rafty-type-thing. I floated out on the raft with Erin, we got yelled at by some random rednecks in a boat passing us because of the flags we had but up xD they screamed 'Go the fuck back to Britian' or something to that extent. I personally found the flags thing to be humorous, especially since its Memorial Day weekend, and the morons getting mad was awesome.
Well, I finally got used to the water, as Erin pushed me in. ;_; (lol)    We messed around more, (Erin purposely got my hair wet, I had just straightened it this morning, and now its crazy curly like grandpa Rome's!) I found a leaf (which was actually a lilly pad) and kept on keeping it with me for some odd attatchment issue reason, and eventually it became to be known as Denmark.
Yes, I know, just say it now, 'HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT WORK?!'
Well, its a leaf (lillypad). And you know Leif Erickson the Viking? Yeah, it came from that. Leaf turned to Leif and we had an odd assumption that Leif is Denmark's name. So i kept talking to the leaf (lilly pad) like it was Denmark. ....I also went after this duck I seen swimming, and I got a bad cramp in my calf and it STILL hurts. Then I turn around once I recovered from the immediate surprise, and the duck was gone! It was the duck's doing, I know it! So we finished swimming, I let Denmark go and told him to go to Norway (from a landlocked lake in America) with godspeed.
We played Risk on the computer. Erin pwned me. I really am N. Italy. xD We had dinner, we built a fire and ate marshmellows. I played in the shallow part of the lake while Erin tended to the fire (Nuke-chan as endearly named by her) and eventually it got dark and we came inside. We started this internet craziness. And while I was typing this, I brought up a new tab, and it supposedly shows where you've been in the past couple sites. Erin was over my shoulder by this time, and it showed that I got on Myspace, livejournal, youtube, gaiaonline, and like 4 gay porn sites! (the first four mentioned being true) And she laughed at me. I'm very amused now. "seriously, It wasnt me this time!" I said, and she concluded then that this computer must just sense faggotry and that's why those were on there. xD
Now were about to go search for food. I have just wasted your life by you reading this. =D sorry bout that.
Anyway, overall, EPIC DAY.

Wed, 20 May 2009 04:54:09 GMT

yo! shimei reporting for duty! ...so yeah, my only access to interwebs right now is my phone. how fail is that? the keys fail so badly that i dont even feel like using proper punctuation, spelling, grammar and all that jazz- which isnt like me at all! its uber-late, i have school tomorrow, and i dunno if my fingers are too big or the keys on this damn phone are too small. why am i posting this when no one will even read it?

at least IM ON THE FREEKIN INTERWEBS RIGHT NOW! god have i missed it so!!

i dont even care right now about the impending doom of the phone bill for the internet that my parents will get. i think i will risk being yelled at. my hands are starting to cramp up.

well, luv ya all. shimei out~

My Psychological evaluation

Tue, 28 Apr 2009 00:39:31 GMT

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Very High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Very High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

Heritage thing

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 23:52:03 GMT

STOLEN from Erin who stole it from Mary.

British
[x] You drink a lot of tea.
[ ] You know what a brolly is.
[ ] Deal or No Deal has taken over your life.
[ ] You wanted Ben to win X Factor.
[x] You use the word "bugger" or the phrase "bloody hell."
[x] Fish and Chips are yummy.
[ ] You can eat a Full English Breakfast.
[x] You dislike emos almost as much as you dislike chavs.
[x] Its football...not soccer.
Total = 5

Australian
[ ] You wear flip flops all year.
[ ] You call flipflops thongs not flip flops.
[ ] You love a backyard barbie.
[ ] You know a barbie is not a doll.
[x] You love the beach.
[x] Sometimes you swear without realizing.
[ ] You're a sports fanatic.
[ ] You are tanned.
[ ] You're a bit of a bogan.
[ ] You have an australian something.
Total = 2

Italian
[ ] The Sopranos is a great show.
[ ] Your last name ends in a vowel.
[x] Your grandmother makes her own sauces.
[x] You know how a real meatball tastes.
[x] You know Italian songs.
[x] You have dark hair and dark eye color.
[ ] You speak some italian.
[x] You are under 5'10''.
[x] You know what a italian horn is
[x] Pizza/spaghetti is the best food in the world
[x] You talk with your hands.
Total = 8

Spanish
[ ] You say member instead of Remember.
[ ] You speak spanish or some.
[ ] You like tacos.
[ ] YoU TyPe lIkE ThIs On Da CoMpUtEr.
[ ] You are dark skinned.
[x] You know what a Puta is.
[x] You talk fast occasionally.
[x] You have had highlights or have dyed your hair.
[ ] You know what platanos are.
Total = 3

Russian
[ ] You say villian as: Vee-lon.
[x] You get short tempered.
[x] You know of somebody named natasha.
[ ] You get cold easily.
[x] Rain is fun for you.
[ ] You get into contests all the time.
[x] You can easily make do with the cold weather.
Total = 4

Irish
[ ] You think beer is the best.
[x] You have a bad temper.
[ ] Your last name starts with a Mc, Murph, O', Fitz or ends with a ley, on, un, an, in, ry, ly, y.
[ ] You have blue or green eyes.
[x] You like the color green.
[x] You have been to a st. pattys day party.
[x] You have a family member from Ireland.
[ ] You have blonde hair.
[ ] You have/had freckles.
[ ] Your family get togethers always include drinking and singing.
Total = 4

African American
[ ] You say nigga/nukka casually
[ ] You have nappy hair.
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You know how to shoot a gun
[ ] You think President George Walker Bush is racist.
[ ] You like chicken.
[x] You like watermelon.
[ ] You can dance.
[ ] You can 'sing' gospel.
Total = 1

Asian
[ ] You have slanty/small eyes.
[x] You like rice a lot.
[ ] You are good at math.
[ ] You have played the piano.
[ ] You have family from asia.
[x] You laugh sometimes covering your mouth.
[ ] Most people think you're chinese.
[ ] You call hurricanes typhoons.
[ ] You go to Baulko.
Total = 2

German
[x] You like bread.
[x] You think German Chocolate is good.
[x] You Speak some German.
[x] You know what Schnitzel is.
[ ] You hate it when stupid people call you a Nazi.
[x]You went to Pre-school.
[x] You're over 5'2.
Total = 6

LOL. Italian at # 1. German at # 2. and British at #3. Really close to my actual heritage. xD

Just a random emo!Post

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 22:03:58 GMT

I DREAM of DEMONS

And we ArE FRIENDS

The first time
you smile a bit and blink back the the tears
you forget a little
that you've been living in hell for all these years.

So be wise
And make your choice
It only works once

Just remember
one day
the only sound you will hear
Will be the echo of your own fears.

Rejected. Alone.
Pain being the one thing
keeping you attached to this world.

Why?

Because someone out there hates you.
I know, he hates me too.
And he is very powerful.

Love?
A fancy word for tolerance.

Care?
DOES NOT EXIST

My Gaia

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 03:54:48 GMT

Sat, 22 Mar 2008 03:53:04 GMT

Title: Egg Hiding Efficiency

By: Shimei Valentine

Summary: I will post this early if I must but I didn’t get to post in time for the last two holidays!

Genre: Humor, romance

Rated: PG

Disclaimer: I do not own prince of tennis or any of the characters

One Shot

___________________________________________________

Inui Sadaharu’s parents did not feel the need to celebrate pointless holidays-well, what holidays they felt were pointless, anyway. Moreover, one of the holidays that they felt was the most illogical was Easter because why would anyone choose a day to take time painting eggs that everyone pretended came from rabbits and then hide them? The rabbit was a mammal for crying out loud, had fur, mammary glands, and did not lay eggs like a foul. And if for an instance, they did lay eggs once a year, why would you paint them and hide them rather than study them? It was completely idiotic and the Inui household never wasted their time with such a thing. They weren’t against it, but they kept to themselves.

Inui barely recalled how the conversation started, but it was probably Kikumaru. He wanted to ask if the day after Easter they could skip practice because he would probably be sick with all the chocolate he would probably consume. Of course, Tezuka outright refused, and asked why he would consume so much chocolate on Easter anyway.

“Nya! That’s what Easter is all about!” Kikumaru announced proudly, “I get chocolate from everyone in my family of little bunnies and chicks! But I feel kinda bad eating them, poor little things-”

“I’m finally old enough to hide eggs at my house instead of look for them!” Momoshiro announced aloud to Echizen, who just rolled his eyes, apparently unimpressed.

“Last time I looked for eggs was, like, five years old.” Echizen lied. Truthfully, he liked to take Karupin around the yard with him and look for the eggs.

“Yeah, well Oishi’s coming to my house on Easter and he’ll help me beat my little cousin in finding the eggs! She allllllways wins!” Eiji pouted, draping and arm around Oishi dramatically. He recovered quickly, however, and began to bounce excitedly again. “What about you Inui? Do you paint numbers on your eggs? Nya-ha!”

“Eiji that’s not nice.” Oishi reprimanded gently.

“Nya, sorry Inui.”

“I don’t have Easter.” Inui responded simply. He was quite used to giving the explanation to his fellow classmates, and was ready to be questioned why already.

Eiji’s eyes looked as though they were going to fall out of his head, “HUH?! Why not, why not, Inui?” Eiji pestered intensely.

Oishi looked nervously at Inui and Eiji, “Eiji, it might be personal!!”

“Yeah, Inui-Senpai might be scared of eggs.” Echizen snickered.

“Echizen!” Oishi said desperately.

“Well that’s one thing that we know isn’t in Inui Juice then.” Momo commented, smiling at his own wit.

“MOMOSHIRO! Y-you three, ten laps!” Oishi said louder. “Inui, I’m so sorry-!”

“It’s alright.” Inui said sincerely, “they didn’t offend in anyway.”

“So do we still have to run the laps, fukubucho?” Momoshiro asked.

“Yes you do. Now go.” Oishi sighed, hating to be mean.

After practice, Inui started for home with his book bag slung messily over his shoulder, his mind actually blank. He enjoyed the weather of the spring as he walked, and wished everyday was this considerate to his tennis play. He nearly tripped over the drinking fountains, but dodged just in time to run into his kohai. He stood up and helped Kaidoh up, frowning at the mud that he had caused to stain the snake-like boy’s bandana. “I’m sorry, Kaidoh, I wasn’t watching-”

“I was the one just standing there.” Kaidoh muttered, a light blush on his face.

“Ah, well, I’ll see you later, then.” Inui began to walk again when he heard wet sneakers move and felt his sleeve being pulled.

“Senpai, I…overheard you today talking to Kikumaru-Senpai, I’m sorry. But, you said you had never had an Easter before?” Kaidoh refused to look at Inui, but Inui smiled at him all the same.

“Yes, I did say that.”

Kaidoh looked surprised, as if he had expected Inui to say he had heard wrong. “Then, Senpai, you have to have one!” he looked up at Inui defiantly, “you need to have an Easter!”

“Kaidoh, I appreciate your concern for me, but it really is alright. It’s just fine with me to not have an Easter, I know primarily what people do on Easter, and it’s not a necessity for me.” Inui moved to remove his sleeve from Kaidoh’s grip, but Kaidoh refused.

“It’s…not fine with me.” Kaidoh’s eyes burnt into his Senpai, as Kaidoh reached into Inui’s pocket, Inui jerking in surprise. Kaidoh pulled out Inui’s cell phone, handing it to Inui, a blush on his face. “Senpai, I would like you to have an Easter today.”

Inui took his phone with some reluctance, never seeing Kaidoh act this way before. He wanted to pull out his notebook, and now his brain was overwhelmed with thoughts in comparison to just five minutes ago. Inui took the hint and dialed his home phone, “Mother? This is Sadaharu. If you don’t mind, I would like to go to a friend’s house for Easter celebrations.” Inui listened for a moment, then hung up. “She said it was fine, Kaidoh.”

“Fshuuu…” Kaidoh hissed nervously as he quickly detached himself from Inui’s sleeve, making Inui chuckle. Kaidoh turned away quickly, and began to silently lead the way to his house. Inui followed obediently, finding himself happy for the opportunity for notes on Kaidoh and his family on Easter; of course not tennis notes, but the common personal notes that he took about things that interested him in the people he knew.

When they arrived, Inui noticed that Kaidoh’s mother, brother, and father greeted them in a happy and airy manner, quite unlike the socially tense Kaidoh that he witnessed everyday at school. Kaidoh responded almost as equally carefree, and Inui was aware that he had stepped into Kaidoh’s comfort zone, and he would perhaps get to witness a new Kaidoh.

“Mom, this is Inui-Senpai, from the tennis team.” Kaidoh’s words gained more tenseness at this introduction, signaling that his comfort zone was not quite the same with Inui around.

“Oh! Hello, Inui-san.” Hozumi smiled, “I am Hozumi, this is my youngest son, Hazue, and my husband, Shibuki. Welcome.”

“Honored, Kaidoh-san.” Inui bowed.

“I assume you are spending Easter with us, then?” Hozumi asked gently.

“Yes. You see, Kaidoh thought that I should have an Easter since I had never had one before.”

Hozumi laughed a little, causing Kaidoh to blush. “That’s definitely my Kaoru for you.”

“Inui!! Come and paint eggs with me!” Hazue ran up to grab Inui’s hand, but a sharp glare from Kaidoh stopped him in his tracks.

Kaidoh looked at Inui, “come on Senpai, I’ll show you how to paint eggs.”

The three of them headed to Kaidoh’s kitchen table, where everything was already set up. Kaidoh told Inui the basics, and Inui began to work silently on his first egg. “Kaidoh? Are you supposed to name the eggs?”

Kaidoh tried not to look at his Senpai funnily, “I suppose you can, if you want, Inui-Senpai.”

Inui’s first egg looked as though a rainbow had thrown up on it, and he couldn’t seem to fix it. Kaidoh wanted to snicker at the look Inui was giving his egg, but he refrained. “Did you name that one, Inui-Senpai?”

“No. It would be an insult to whoever I named it after.” Inui poked it defiantly, getting some paint on his finger from the still wet egg.

“That’s not true. I like it, Senpai.” Kaidoh lied, wondering afterwards why he felt like he had to say that. “Name it after me.”

“Really, Kaidoh?” Inui smiled a little, examining his egg again. “Well, alright.”

After many more attempts, Inui had gotten much better, and had simply made eight more eggs for the sake of naming them after the rest of the team, including himself. Kaidoh smiled at Inui’s completed collection, and when they dried, he asked if his parents would hide them so Inui and Hazue could go and find them.

“But Kaoru, I thought you wanted to hide this year?” his mother asked.

Kaidoh had a faint blush on his face, accompanied by a hiss. “I…need to help Inui-Senpai. I don’t want him to lose to Hazue.”

His parents hid the eggs, and the three boys set out in their back yard to look. Inui had a bunny-shaped basket, and Kaidoh wanted so bad to smile and maybe even laugh. Inui apparently thought it as regular Easter requirement, and failed to realize how childish the tall 3^rd year looked.

Inui succeeded in looking in all of the wrong places, including the rain gutter on the house. Kaidoh saw that Hazue had already found two eggs, and Kaidoh was worried that it would discourage Inui if he lost to an eleven year old. “Inui-Senpai, they’re not going to be in difficult places like the rain gutter!”

Inui blinked curiously at Kaidoh, subconsciously swinging the empty bunny-basket over his shoulder. “Why not? It is a competition.”

“I-I dunno, but they’re not!” Kaidoh said, flustered at his own stupid answer. “Not everyone is as tall as you.”

“Ah. So it’s a fair competition for all statures?” Inui examined Kaidoh and realized that the 2^nd year had removed the muddy bandana, and his soft black hair was being teased by the gentle spring wind. Inui shifted his eyes away, thinking how adorable his kohai looked.

“Supposed to be.” Kaidoh nodded, glad he had gotten through to his Senpai.

Inui had now found two eggs, and he was really getting into the spirit. “I have Tezuka and Fuji, which are the most difficult tennis players, so the rest must be easy to find!”

Kaidoh raised an eyebrow, “Senpai, they’re not in order of difficulty like that.”

“hm? But it would make sense that they would be, I mean, these were hard eggs to find.”

“But my parents don’t know the ranking of our tennis players. And I don’t think they’d do it that way anyway.”

“Oh. Well, it would make much more sense that way.” Inui stated in an as-a-matter-of-fact manner.

Kaidoh almost wanted to say that it didn’t need to make sense because small children played this game, and they didn’t feel the need to name their eggs the names of their tennis regulars. “Lets keep looking, Senpai.”

At the very end, Inui had four eggs, and Hazue had four eggs. Inui now possessed the Tezuka, Fuji, Eiji, and Ryoma eggs, while Hazue had found the Momo, Taka, Oishi, and Inui eggs. Which meant the only one left to find was the Kaidoh egg. Inui was, needless to say, determined. “I will find you, Kaidoh-egg!” Inui took off running across Kaidoh’s yard, and Kaidoh chuckled lightly behind him.

After about five minutes of looking, neither Hazue or Inui had found the egg. Kaidoh was beginning to wonder if his parents had even hid that one when Inui made a noise of joy. Kaidoh watched as Inui found his mother’s kitten statue, and lifted it up to reveal a hole in the bottom of the statue, hiding the last egg.

Kaidoh walked over curiously, “Inui-Senpai, how did you know?”

“I knew this game had some kind of logic to it. The Kaidoh egg was near the kitten, just like in real life.” Inui smiled setting the last egg in his bunny basket, as Hazue congratulated him. Kaidoh was lost in his own embarrassment that his Senpai knew so much about him that he found the egg before his own little brother.

The sun began to set and Kaidoh was allowed by Inui to smash the Momo egg on the sidewalk, as Hazue laughed at his brother’s antics. Inui took the rest of the eggs with him as Kaidoh walked his Senpai home. Inui’s brain was thinking at a gentle pace as he looked over at Kaidoh every once in awhile, Kaidoh smiling genuinely back.

“it’s a real shame that I cannot keep this egg.” Inui held the Kaidoh egg up in the sunlight, “It has come to mean a lot to me, but it will rot, like all eggs, if I keep it.”

Kaidoh blushed deeply. Surely Inui meant that it was important because it was his first ever egg? “You are welcome to make another next year.”

“That’s impossible. This can’t be duplicated-” Inui placed it back into the basket gently, “-this Kaidoh egg.”

“Surely with work, it can be?”

“But it wouldn’t mean nearly as much to me.” Inui stopped, looking Kaidoh in the eyes, as Kaidoh did the same. “I only wish…that I had the real thing. Much more precious than a perishable painted egg.”

“Inui-Senpai, why don’t you just take it? No one has claimed the real thing yet.”

“Allow me to do just that-” Inui gently pressed his lips against Kaidoh’s for a few moments, before pulling respectfully away. He smiled at his Kohai, and Kaidoh felt his heart leap in his chest. “This is the last time I will ever need to search. I have found the prize that values above all the others.”

“I…love you, Senpai.”

“I love you too, Kaoru.” he turned to his door and opened it half way, “Bye, Kaoru.” He found he loved using Kaidoh’s first name.

“Bye Sadaharu.” Kaidoh found that he loved his Inui’s first name more than another first name he had ever heard.

“Did you have a good Easter, Sadaharu?”

“Yes mother.”

“Did you find it as worthless as we find it?” his father asked from his kitchen.

“Not quite. But I‘m glad we‘ve never had an Easter.”

The End

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 22:35:39 GMT

xDD I seen Sweeney Todd AGAIN AND I IS A HAPPY SHIMEI!!!

and I gotz teh soundtrack now!!! :DDDD

Sun, 20 Jan 2008 04:16:55 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEST FRIEND GUSSIE TODAY!!!

>D Teh party was awesome I just got back. Everyone went crazy with Wii and Guitar Hero and stuffs.

But my mother and father (technically) had to be freaking stupid and tell me that I cant spend the night. They have no logical reason. Yes, it is church tomorrow, but GUSSIE'S DAD (my dad) HAS ALWAYS TAKEN ME WHEN I SPEND THE NIGHT!!! >.>
I think they are jealous because I love Gussie's parents more. At least they're not ****ing zealots.

Sat, 19 Jan 2008 04:35:25 GMT

I went to Brad's house today and played Oblivion for the first time evar. I made an awesome character, but I was kinda duh about it for a little while. I had too much weight, so Brad helped me get rid of stuff from my inventory. Then I said "oh! Look! Stuff!" and picked it back up....o.o; Needless to say it was freaking hilarious and I will never live it down.

So I got home just a couple minutes ago and...

I FOUND A SUBWAY COOKIE.

Indeed it has been a good day. =D

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 21:02:32 GMT

Nate is at my house today. I am writing this with him over my shoulder. Hi nate. NO YOU CANT SAY HI BACK. Dont cry!!

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